today is father's day.
i don't like today.
now don't get me wrong, i have lots of important father figures in my life.
just no biological father.
which doesn't really bother me until i go out in public.
it kinda kills me to see everyone out with their dads,
having a good time, and enjoying time with him.
i wonder if they realize how important he is.
he's always been there for them, so i wonder if they realize that or take him for granted.
my dad left me when i was three, and i didn't see him again until i was six.
even when i started going over to his house, we had no real relationship.
i was forced to go over there, thus our relationship was forced.
i realize how important it is to have your father in your life.
but maybe i'm better off without him in my life.
who knows.
i know i don't.
this is the first year that i didn't wish my dad happy father's day.
it's gotten so bad between us that i don't know what to say.
"uh, happy father's day. i hope a house falls on you."
not really the best way to go.
but hopefully this will all be over soon and he will be in my past,
because i am of age and no longer have to go see him if i don't want to.
still, father's day is gonna suck.
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"just go and leave this all behind, 'cause i swear, i don't care."
they help me through a lot in life.
