baconisgoodforme.

speech camp was amazing!

i made so many new friends,

and i miss everyone.

and squad four.

'cause you know, we we're the best squad. (;

mrs. v, mrs. hey, and billy, you guys were the best!

we won squad olympics.

then afterwards we played a freaking long game of simon says.

alex and i were co-champions!

after being late to literally every squad meeting

we had the first two days, the squad decided it was best

if they would alll text me ten minutes before a meeting.

so i'd wake up with 7584873 messages that all said,

"wake up! squad meeting...now!"

haha.

this is pretty much what we did in our free time . . .

words can't even describe most of these.

everyone did stupendous at the tournament.

i actually got first in prose and second in monologue!

it was pretty cool.

then we had to say goodbye to everyone.

it was really sad.

especially having to say bye to my mmm asian family.

but it's all good, 'cause imma see them next year. (:

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"don't tell her i called you a whore. tell her i called you a dirty russian whore!"

iloveyoubaby.

hi.

i love my friends.

they're the best. (:

they help me through a lot in life.

anddd they can always make me smile.

even when i don't want to.

i really really don't deserve such amazing friends.

but for some reason they stick with me.

and for that i am very grateful.

all of my friends, i love you. (:

"the future is no place to place your better days."

happyfathersday.

today is father's day.

i don't like today.

now don't get me wrong, i have lots of important father figures in my life.

just no biological father.

which doesn't really bother me until i go out in public.

it kinda kills me to see everyone out with their dads,

having a good time, and enjoying time with him.

i wonder if they realize how important he is.

he's always been there for them, so i wonder if they realize that or take him for granted.

my dad left me when i was three, and i didn't see him again until i was six.

even when i started going over to his house, we had no real relationship.

i was forced to go over there, thus our relationship was forced.

i realize how important it is to have your father in your life.

but maybe i'm better off without him in my life.

who knows.

i know i don't.

this is the first year that i didn't wish my dad happy father's day.

it's gotten so bad between us that i don't know what to say.

"uh, happy father's day. i hope a house falls on you."

not really the best way to go.

but hopefully this will all be over soon and he will be in my past,

because i am of age and no longer have to go see him if i don't want to.

still, father's day is gonna suck.
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"just go and leave this all behind, 'cause i swear, i don't care."